The solo search is necessary for someone whose chameleon pattern since birth was to follow. It’s a subconscious pattern of following others, join a group, to try to fit in even when I suspect I don’t, or at least feel like I don’t. The pattern weaves through my entire life, in all my relationships. Is... Continue Reading →
How Do I Flip the Attitude Switch?
I need to flip a switch on my attitude. I’ve done it before, but how? Do I start tapping again? Maybe I could use it just for whatever I need to change right now. Don’t do the deep digging into the past; don’t buy into the belief that my whole world can magically be transformed.... Continue Reading →
Change Wallow to WE
I took action to get enough information to feel better about a change in direction. Fortunately my real estate advisor is a good friend with a vital professional and financial angle. Complete honesty is easy without feeling embarrassed. She could hear in my voice I don’t sound like myself and I admitted I have been in... Continue Reading →
Evolution of Personal Blogging
Personal Blogging Evolution of blogging has gone far from where it began. I want to honor and respect the original intention of blogs before businesses evolved it to a marketing gimmick and advertising medium. It’s about openly sharing our unique thoughts and experiences, not just writing something clever to promote your business. Well, I don’t have a... Continue Reading →
Allow or Wallow in Depression
Day two the depression fog rolls in, metaphorically and physically. It’s foggy, wet, dreary and dark this morning. I don’t feel like writing, maybe because I wrote a long time yesterday. Browsing past New Year's journal entries as far back as I have digital files, that was enough digging to notice I don’t want to do... Continue Reading →
Who Am I? Why Am I Here? Because A Writer Writes!
I AM! "You are here to enable the divine purpose of the Universe to unfold. That is how important you are!" —Eckhart Tolle I am a writer, finally! I've known since my teens I have a memoir to write, but I'm no Ann Frank. I had to do a whole lot more living before I... Continue Reading →
Observe and Change My Program
Thursday I saw my old program and pattern of belief running. I played with it, started to buy into it and almost got sucked in. It is a pattern of feeling like I don’t belong, I’m outside of the group, not part of, not included, left behind, forgotten about and unacknowledged. The first indication was... Continue Reading →
Back To Basics
The sweet zone was elusive, but I’m still good. Yesterday I was tired, bored and sleepy. My zone was mostly neutral. I noticed a couple of judgments and tapped on them. I may need to start doing my own seminars again. I may get distracted telling my stories, but no more and maybe less than... Continue Reading →
Why do I repeat training for six years?
A couple issues popped up yesterday during class, but I didn’t go deeply into them. My intention for this week is to tap on raw sensations and not look for traumas or stories. My unconscious mind knows what the raw sensations are connected to and it can heal without me consciously knowing the memories. I’ve... Continue Reading →
Back Home In OKC
As soon as I pulled up in front of Deanna’s house my car started vibrating. It got me to Jason’s Deli, but it has been hesitating more frequently. The vibration gives me hope that if I take it to my mechanic here they will figure out the problem that my Emporia mechanics haven’t found yet.... Continue Reading →