The solo search is necessary for someone whose chameleon pattern since birth was to follow. It’s a subconscious pattern of following others, join a group, to try to fit in even when I suspect I don’t, or at least feel like I don’t. The pattern weaves through my entire life, in all my relationships. Is... Continue Reading →
I grab the yoga mat I inherited from Linda Esser and head out the door in her yoga pants. I only used them for lounging until now. It feels weird to be in public in lounge pants. The Heart Center Studio is my third ever Yoga class. It’s my first time to experience it as... Continue Reading →
Jin Shin Jyutsu (JSJ) is a remarkable surprise. I have an hour of reflexology and an hour of JSJ. During the hour process of JSJ we don’t talk, there is no music, just lovely silence. Afterward I feel like I’ve had a full body massage. The only massage done was on my feet, nowhere else.... Continue Reading →
The sweet zone was elusive, but I’m still good. Yesterday I was tired, bored and sleepy. My zone was mostly neutral. I noticed a couple of judgments and tapped on them. I may need to start doing my own seminars again. I may get distracted telling my stories, but no more and maybe less than... Continue Reading →
Before I watched I am on Sunday, I felt alone, isolated, somber, stuck and depressed. That plus the movie and my Morning Pages on Monday were all part of the set-up for the huge trigger and tapping time out for the afternoon. Days later I realized how it was like an Emotional Eclipse. It erased... Continue Reading →
Sometimes I feel stuck, trapped in my body of symptoms and a mind full of thoughts. It’s amazing how I’ve changed so much, but there’s so much more to come. Sometimes I want to quit. Enough already! How much more must I do to be ultimately free? Is it endless? When I started this tapping... Continue Reading →
I’m on a peaceful plateau. It feels good, nice to feel centered, grounded and immovable. Of course “This too shall pass.” But does it have to? Maybe not, if I’m willing to focus more on my Higher Nature of Spirit. The key is staying in tune with my body/mind and notice the thoughts and sensations... Continue Reading →
The body is very interesting! Since I was young I noticed momentary sensations in various places and wondered, “What was that?” I soon realized not every sensation was an emergency alarm and began to ignore most things that aren’t persistent. I had shooting pains through my abdomen, weak and achy ankles, the normal itches, bruises... Continue Reading →
I mined a gold nugget from my January 2002 journal. I had completely forgotten the phrase that came in a dream in the 1990s, “All I ever require is Powerless Wonder.” I also referred to The Great Whatever, which I’ve not forgotten, but don’t practice the way I did. That would be a good thing... Continue Reading →
Death In My Face Sunday after Mom and I return from her younger sister’s memorial service, I open the suitcase of their dad’s letters. Postmark dates on top are the years each of my Grandparents died. Briefly I notice death is still in my face. Tuesday following, in the midst of a full day of... Continue Reading →
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